Must. Sleep.

Ok so it’s been absolutely forever (seven months to be precise) since I’ve updated this blog and I am promising myself I’m turning over a new leaf and will try to speak more about my work and what makes me tick. There was a time when I’d sooner die than blog which is why so far these posts have been kinda dry and devoid of life or my own voice.

But for some crazy reason, right now in a hotel in Ottawa on a corporate assignment for the Automotive Journalists Association of Canada, I am trying to breathe some life into this thing as I fight a bout of terrible insomnia.

For the past while I’ve felt so strained in more ways than I can count and photography has also gotten sucked into all this confusion. Or perhaps photography is the driver of all this confusion, who knows. But what I do know is that I’m still pushing myself to be a better photographer and storyteller. I”ve been venturing out to shoot work that that I’ve always wanted to do and that I hope to be proud of.

But man the self doubt. What is the cure for this debilitating self doubt? My mom, who I adore, bought me the little cheesy book of encouraging quotes that I secretly read all the time. There’s one from Van Gogn that says: “If you hear a voice within you say ‘you cannot paint,’ then by all means paint, and that voice will be silenced.”

I love that. At the risk of sounding really corny I am trying to find my way in photojournalism and I’m at some weird cross road where I’m trying to achieve new goals and find my voice and everything seems super confusing.

2013 has been pretty good. I can’t really catch you up on seven months of work but the past few weeks I’ve been camped out at the circus that is Toronto City Hall as Mayor Rob Ford continues to dodge crack cocaine allegations. This has included standing outside his house at 5Am on 3 hours sleep the day the news broke and having my little run in with Ford’s security published in print and on TV alongside a pretty unflattering but hilarious photo.

Aside from daily news stuff, I had a really amazing time in Mexico’s Chiapas region shooting for an aid and development agency World Vision. I travelled with a hilarious and sarcastic writer who I’ve been to Zimbabwe with years back and I met a really awesome friend and translator (please give me a shout if you’re ever in need of someone in Mexico City).  I also spent some time in Winnipeg sleeping on a friend’s couch (thank god for awesome friends). Winnipeg is far more interesting than it’s given credit for and I’m really looking forward to heading there again this week after I finish this corporate shoot.

Well that’s all. The following pics will disappoint because I don’t have time to go through the 7 months worth of assignments right now. So here’s just a few pics of Toronto Maple Leafs fans throughout all the intense ups and downs of playoff action that eventually lead to our crushing loss.

I promise, promise, promise to have more pics posted, to blog more and have a proper website up this year! Thanks for stopping by!

Jim Ward watches as the Toronto Maple Leafs take on the Boston Bruins in NHL playoffs at Toronto's Maple Leaf Square on Friday, May 10, 2013. The Bruins lead the series 3-1 and a win means the Leafs will live to play Game 6 of the Eastern Conference quarterfinal. (Michelle Siu for The Globe and Mail)

Fans scream as the Toronto Maple Leafs win against the Boston Bruins 2-1 in NHL playoffs at Toronto's Maple Leaf Square on Friday, May 10, 2013. The win means that the Leafs will live to play Game 6 of the Eastern Conference quarterfinal. (Michelle Siu for The Globe and Mail)

A fan reacts while watching the Toronto Maple Leafs take on the Boston Bruins during Game 6 of the Eastern Conference quarter-final at Toronto's Maple Leaf Square on Sunday, May 12, 2013. The Leafs defeated the Bruins 2-1 to take the series to Boston for Game 7. (Michelle Siu for The Globe and Mail)
A fan reacts while watching the Toronto Maple Leafs take on the Boston Bruins during Game 6 of the Eastern Conference quarter-final at Toronto’s Maple Leaf Square on Sunday, May 12, 2013. The Leafs defeated the Bruins 2-1 to take the series to Boston for Game 7. (Michelle Siu for The Globe and Mail)
Fans celebrate as the Toronto Maple Leafs take a 2-1 win over the Boston Bruins during Game 6 of the Eastern Conference quarter-final at Toronto's Maple Leaf Square on Sunday, May 12, 2013. (Michelle Siu for The Globe and Mail)
Fans celebrate as the Toronto Maple Leafs take a 2-1 win over the Boston Bruins during Game 6 of the Eastern Conference quarter-final at Toronto’s Maple Leaf Square on Sunday, May 12, 2013. (Michelle Siu for The Globe and Mail)
Fans Brianna McMichael, left, Laura-Lee Jack, centre, and Alex Adams watch in the rain as the Toronto Maple Leafs take on the Boston Bruins in NHL playoffs in the first period at Toronto's Maple Leaf Square on Friday, May 10, 2013. The Bruins lead the series 3-1 and a win means the Leafs will live to play Game 6 of the Eastern Conference quarterfinal. (Michelle Siu for The Globe and Mail)
Fans Brianna McMichael, left, Laura-Lee Jack, centre, and Alex Adams watch in the rain as the Toronto Maple Leafs take on the Boston Bruins in NHL playoffs in the first period at Toronto’s Maple Leaf Square on Friday, May 10, 2013. The Bruins lead the series 3-1 and a win means the Leafs will live to play Game 6 of the Eastern Conference quarterfinal. (Michelle Siu for The Globe and Mail)
Fans pack Toronto's Maple Leaf Square before the Toronto Maple Leafs take on the Boston Bruins for game seven of the first round of NHL Stanley Cup Playoff series on Monday, May 13, 2013. (Michelle Siu for The Globe and Mail)
Fans pack Toronto’s Maple Leaf Square before the Toronto Maple Leafs take on the Boston Bruins for game seven of the first round of NHL Stanley Cup Playoff series on Monday, May 13, 2013. (Michelle Siu for The Globe and Mail)
A fan reacts as the Boston Bruins defeat Toronto Maple Leafs 5-4 at Toronto's Maple Leaf Square during overtime of game seven of the first round of NHL Stanley Cup Playoff series on Monday, May 13, 2013. (Michelle Siu for The Globe and Mail)
A fan reacts as the Boston Bruins defeat Toronto Maple Leafs 5-4 at Toronto’s Maple Leaf Square during overtime of game seven of the first round of NHL Stanley Cup Playoff series on Monday, May 13, 2013. (Michelle Siu for The Globe and Mail)
A fan cries as she is consoled after the Boston Bruins defeat Toronto Maple Leafs 5-4 at Toronto's Maple Leaf Square during overtime of game seven of the first round of NHL Stanley Cup Playoff series on Monday, May 13, 2013. (Michelle Siu for The Globe and Mail)
A fan cries as she is consoled after the Boston Bruins defeat Toronto Maple Leafs 5-4 at Toronto’s Maple Leaf Square during overtime of game seven of the first round of NHL Stanley Cup Playoff series on Monday, May 13, 2013. (Michelle Siu for The Globe and Mail)
Michael Chini falls to his knees as the Boston Bruins ties the game against the Toronto Maple Leafs at Toronto's Maple Leaf Square during the third period of game seven of the first round of NHL Stanley Cup Playoff series on Monday, May 13, 2013. (Michelle Siu for The Globe and Mail)
Michael Chini falls to his knees as the Boston Bruins ties the game against the Toronto Maple Leafs at Toronto’s Maple Leaf Square during the third period of game seven of the first round of NHL Stanley Cup Playoff series on Monday, May 13, 2013. (Michelle Siu for The Globe and Mail)
Fans react as the Boston Bruins defeat Toronto Maple Leafs 5-4 at Toronto's Maple Leaf Square during overtime of game seven of the first round of NHL Stanley Cup Playoff series on Monday, May 13, 2013. (Michelle Siu for The Globe and Mail)
Fans react as the Boston Bruins defeat Toronto Maple Leafs 5-4 at Toronto’s Maple Leaf Square during overtime of game seven of the first round of NHL Stanley Cup Playoff series on Monday, May 13, 2013. (Michelle Siu for The Globe and Mail)
Jayden Preddie watches as the Toronto Maple Leafs take on the Boston Bruins in NHL playoffs at Toronto's Maple Leaf Square on Friday, May 10, 2013. The Bruins lead the series 3-1 and a win means the Leafs will live to play Game 6 of the Eastern Conference quarterfinal. (Michelle Siu for The Globe and Mail)
Jayden Preddie watches as the Toronto Maple Leafs take on the Boston Bruins in NHL playoffs at Toronto’s Maple Leaf Square on Friday, May 10, 2013. The Bruins lead the series 3-1 and a win means the Leafs will live to play Game 6 of the Eastern Conference quarterfinal. (Michelle Siu for The Globe and Mail)
Fans celebrate as the Toronto Maple Leafs score on Boston Bruins at Toronto's Maple Leaf Square during the third period of game seven of the first round of NHL Stanley Cup Playoff series on Monday, May 13, 2013. (Michelle Siu for The Globe and Mail)
Fans celebrate as the Toronto Maple Leafs score on Boston Bruins at Toronto’s Maple Leaf Square during the third period of game seven of the first round of NHL Stanley Cup Playoff series on Monday, May 13, 2013. (Michelle Siu for The Globe and Mail)
Jayden Preddie reacts after watching the Toronto Maple Leafs score their first goal against the Boston Bruins at Toronto's Maple Leaf Square during game seven of the first round of NHL Stanley Cup Playoffs on Monday, May 13, 2013. (Michelle Siu for The Globe and Mail)
Jayden Preddie reacts after watching the Toronto Maple Leafs score their first goal against the Boston Bruins at Toronto’s Maple Leaf Square during game seven of the first round of NHL Stanley Cup Playoffs on Monday, May 13, 2013. (Michelle Siu for The Globe and Mail)
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